Updated: Jan 11, 2022
I have struggled with an eating disorder for a while now, and it was one of the worst things that have ever happened to me. It destroyed my relationship with myself and my body. I got obsessed with the number on the scale and obsessed with having the "perfect body." I set unrealistic standards for myself and compared my body to others. I went on extreme diets that ruined my relationship with food and my body. I was scared to eat; therefore, I would purge for days.
My life began a cycle of pain and self-hate. My entire family was worried about me, but even though I couldn't even stand up, I continued, I became dependent on chemical substances to make me no longer feel the pain, but nothing worked. After years of pain and suffering, I finally decided to get professional help because I realized that not recovering means dying when eating disorders. And I couldn't leave this world. I had too much I loved and wanted to do. So I got help, and I'm proud to say I have been recovering for one year.
I still have tough days, but I'm pushing through, and I will continue my journey of loving myself. And to everyone out there, girls and boys, please find help and know that there are so many people going through the same thing. You are strong and powerful, and you WILL get through this, but you need to start recovering before its too late.